NaNo meltdown...
After a serious debate with myself, I've decided to trash what I've written until now and start over. Because I don't like it, and it's useless to go on with something you hate because it's not what you expected it to be.
So... a new page. This will mean that my already vanishing chances of making the goal have just now gone up in flames, but somehow I feel better, not worse.
I'm not trashing everything, of course.
Some of the characters are staying, and some situations as well, but the story is undergoing a massive re-write and, more important, a massive re-think.
Since I'm an optimist at heart (or suffering from the Pollyanna Syndrome...) I see this not so much as a failure in the NaNo challenge, but as a learning experience. And these are always valuable.
I've learned what I don't want this story to be. And I've learned that I intend to write it, no matter how much time it takes.
And who knows? Someday I might even be able to run to the finish line, because if there's no NaNo today, there will be NaNo tomorrow. There's always a NaNo tomorrow...
(with many apologies to Susan Ivanova and the whole B5 universe for the mangled quote...)